Kobe, Kobe, Kobe ... Silly me, but I was of the opinion that he was one of the good guys. A whiner and a crybaby on the court but a class act off it. That was my opinion, at least. Now I don't know ... But I am very, very disappointed. Minimum. To be frank, I wouldn't have thought him capable of the adultery part of it, and was stunned to hear him cop to that. And this affects me. Kobe is Ethan's hero. Not just his favorite athlete. His HERO. He's at summer camp and I know he's going to hear about this. What do I tell him? He's only eleven! I was thinking of telling him that Kobe has been accused of hurting someone and answer any questions he might have truthfully and honestly without overdoing the birds and bees stuff ... But he knows. Kids talk about these things, and probably know far more than we suspect. Frankly, talking to Ethan about this scares the shit out of me. And he WILL come to me with it. No doubt. I'm going to tell him that Kobe was wrong, period, because he hurt his wife, his family, his teammates, his fans, everyone who believed in him. And that disrespectful behavior toward women is always wrong. We'll let the s-e-x stuff land where it may, but we have to deal with this. Quite possibly this may be an opportunity to ... Nah, it's just bad all the way around. How do you feel when your hero falls from grace? Will it give kids ideas that adultery is OK if Kobe does it? Aaaaaarrrrrggggghhhh. Fuck you, Kobe! Fuck you for all the dads and pseudo-dads who have to explain this now. Even if it was consensual, was it worth it? Absolutely not. It never is. Thinking with the little head never is. Ever. I tried to tell her that, back in the day. Hey. Sex is great if you're in love. Without that, it's pretty much trouble. Fuck you again, Kobe. I think you might just be guilty, because I didn't think you'd do the adultery; so I guess right about now I can believe most anything.

I will not accept it. Ever. It is unacceptable. And I will be here for her. When. BTW, 4 years ago today, I laid eyes on someone for the first time. Hasn't been the same since. "Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart." - Washington Irving