Worried sick and you know why. Throw that goddamn pipe away; throw all the dope away and Get.Fucking.Help! You're going to DIE, do you hear me? And you're not BAD. You just believe you are and it's killing you! Give it up! Care about yourself. Ditch the pimp and the pipe and get help, please. There are people out here who care about you, who love you. Me, for one. PLEASE GET HELP! Call AA today, NOW! It CAN be done. I did it. Sober 5 years now. Get in touch, too.